下午就要动身去馒头家拉.我们一行浩浩荡荡惊动了馒父馒母,前后张罗,弄得我们都有些过意不去.期待的阳澄湖大闸蟹之旅.

    10.1胡D伉俪要来幽会,回上海后就要开始帮他们张罗.2号约好JOJO去淘碟,,鉴于经济紧张,估计也只是去见识一下伟大的上海打口碟市场而已.听音乐还是死守着我的P2P软件们.JOJO真的要成花痴啦!!(希望她别来逛我的空间...)自从买了lacrimosa的演唱会门票就开始嘀咕着穿什么化什么妆.我这个空虚无聊之辈也跟着瞎起哄...毕竟是JOJO的御用造型师...挖卡卡卡.虽然不听歌特,也得留意一下歌特妆了,等着我打造一个全新的JOJO吧!!嘿嘿

    4号JOJO的同学请我和师兄吃饭,感谢我们救他于水深火热之中.然后长假就要过半啦.我还想干好多事情呢.要和怡琳去溜冰,组织一次家庭做饭派对,哈哈,还想游个泳头发做次护理,添两件秋天的衣服....还做个屁兼职啊.死娃娃鱼仗着个上班的母娃娃就不想出去骗钱啦!指望跟着他混出去忽悠,自己先被忽悠了.赚外快,还是没着落.

    最后,祝我十一快乐.也希望大家都过得快乐.被幸福塞得满满

    Why do people get drunk?for they're sad?or getting drunk is the reason of sorrow?

    I never really got drunk with alcohol.but sadness touches me from time to time.I can get drunk with cigarettes,music,even with nothing.Maybe being drunk is just a kind of exploision of emotion.I don't need alcohol to get drunk,like we don't need eyes to see.

    Life's a lullaby,as somebody says.We're always listenning ,but hear nothing,we're always watching,but see nothing.We can just stuck in the childhood dream,or sleep like a feeded baby,without anyone being able wake us up.

一个暑假的疲惫,

沮丧过,疯狂过,失落过,

也终于开朗,

感觉自己挣扎着洗去了一身的混沌,

附着于身上的污泥也终于被沙石磨去,

我回到了自己的本色,

生命的时钟转了一圈,又回到了12点,

一个轮回,也是一次新生

 

我承认自己是太倔强了,

从不愿相信人们的忠言逆耳,

只有自己摔在地上,

才相信地球是硬的

 

相爱如此轻易而相处却如此折磨.

因为我们都误以为彼此是这个世界上最特别的人,

而事实上,独一无二是闪光的幻象,

电光火石的瞬间留下的只是双眼的刺痛,

鄙视生活的人,被生活狠狠的报复了.

 

庆幸的是,

自己比想象中坚强,

也感谢陪伴我走过这些日子的朋友们.

谢谢宝宝,

我们有点像,

但你比我经历的多,比我犹豫的少.

谢谢北京婆,

杨过和榴莲说我和你在一起是就乐得屁颠屁颠的.

谢谢Charles,

虽然你只陪伴了我六天,

但却留给了我最珍贵的礼物:豁然开朗

谢谢蛛,

你让我看到了我们最初梦想的形状,

这种感觉,重新在延续...

谢谢静,谢谢珊,谢谢毛毛...

还有许多许多一路鼓励我的姐妹们.

 钻出了黑漆漆的隧道,

我的面前是充满无限可能的生命之树,

原来属于我的生命之树.

 

我永远不会是个天使,

我所坚持的态度,

不是爱情,不是面包,

是生活本身

    假装我无所谓，假装习惯是假的，假装我满心期待，假装我的世界很精彩，假装我被塞得满满的没有空虚。装的还真像，我几乎相信我是个大人。

    她们说，忘记得最好方法是寻找。可我就觉得恶心，不谈对于某根稻草是否公平，就自私的说我自己，是我自己的肚子里酸水一阵阵的往上泛。

    我们都是天真的完美主义者，曾经觉得当完美的世界在我眼中退去时，我会无怨无悔的死去。而现在，我仍拧拧巴巴的挣扎着，想要与残酷的世界作些什么最后的斗争之类，却发现自己歪歪倒倒的连骨头还没长全。总不愿睁开黏糊糊的眼皮，睁开了却发现周围模糊一片。不是眼泪是浆糊。若我可以发出一声哭泣，也说明我的脐带断裂了，可惜，我连一滴眼泪也挤不出来。

    就装吧，还可以怎么装。

    You came here,from the far away space,to save me.Pulled me out of the mud,wiped me tenderly,and painted me with your color.

    Then you just faded away.Left me standing still there,fragile inside.

    When dreams turn into black and white like an old film.Colors faded,only left the reality.Life goes on,we still have to face the music.It's you,my little prince,who had brought me here.Without you I'll be stuck in the mud, killed in my film.

    But you were brought by a shooting star,and taken by the air.You belong to your little planet.Your heart is made of your own rose,that's why it looks so beautiful.
    I'm just a fox on the earth.I need love.I need everything.But I don't want anything.

    Just leave me alone.No one's gonna save me from myself.

 

风景

便利商店

 

    星期一，单身万岁，家里的事情已经不想再多考虑了，只觉得爱情，婚姻都是一片灰蒙蒙的，我躲得远远

    星期二，压抑混沌，尝试躲开所有人，却躲不开永恒的骂声

    星期三，车丢了，又被骂了，不是我的错，似乎还是我的错

    星期四，恶心，一晚上的恶心，被关注的恶心，被贪婪的目光灼得直反胃，逛空间逛得我肚子里翻江倒海，都滚，我什么都不要

    星期五，还在期待。。。

。。。我还有期待吗。。。

 

    It's true that we're born lonely.We this generation in China are mostly only child.In our family,we're always too much taken care of,few of us had learned how to care about others.We live in our own world.Everyone has it's own characteristic.But we're nerver independent.Why we always feel lonely,it's because that we depend too much on others.It's not only your problem.See everyone's sending SMS anytime anywhere?Why are we doing this?To always feel connected to people,aren't we?

    Still talking about our generation."Beatnik"is never for us.I always agree that we're the indifferent generation.Are you thinking about make some changes as people say,to "get along with"the society,and then being part of our great "indifferent generation"?I'll say congratulations and,sorry to know this.Seems that life is easier,in fact u have lost your independece,that means,lost yourself.

    Being independent will always be important for me no matter in what circumstance.That's what I learned this summer.Not having too much confidence to listen to listen to others,but keep thinking independently,you're smart enough to do this.